i just need to vent

today was one of those days that made me think, if school wasn't ending very very soon i'd be quitting immediately. but we are unbelievably close to summer so i hung on. to the job and my sanity.

it seems like there was so much happening today that the only way to get it all down is in list form. so please bear with me.

1. i have this student. he is a handful to say the least. heavily medicated on antipsychotics. can't stay away in class at all, says totally inappropriate things loudly, always needs to go to the nurse or the bathroom. the class period i have with him went without incident, but later in the day i was in the hall and he stormed out of another class yelling at the teacher (longterm sub) that he was leaving. so i followed him to the office because my class was covered and he started yelling, with fists clenched, that he was tired of the kids making fun of him and he wanted to hit someone. the emergency counselor was called and i went back to find out what happened. it seems that he punched a girl in the arm and the other kids got on his back for hitting a girl so he got mad. after i went back to class it seems that he came back, got mad again, threatened to kill himself, threatened the sub with his skateboard and the counselor was called again. in a matter of 2 hours he was back in class. i can't think of anything to say about this. it makes me want to cry.

2. twice today staff members at my school proved that the special ed department and our kids really are the red-headed stepchildren and nobody can be bothered to know what it is i even teach.

3. i am known as the nice homeroom teacher. it does not bother me for other kids to come to my room if they have no other work to do. i found out today that some girls have been forging my signature to get kids out of class that aren't even coming to my room. when the 2 girls that got caught were being questioned they told me that someone in my class was forging but they weren't going to turn her in. they apologized and i informed them that if they were going to protect someone that was continuing to break my trust i could not accept their apologies. i know exactly who is doing it but i would like for her to fess up. tomorrow we will see. i feel strangely and totally violated. that's what i get for being nice i suppose.

4. state assessment scores are back and my kids kicked ass for the most part in reading. i'm so proud. apparently, though, i'm not supposed to be happy because the rival junior high in our district did better than us on other stuff. because it's all about the competition? i'm sorry, but the day competition becomes more important than my kids is the day i turn in my resignation letter.

there is more but i can't go there. i need comfort food